i just hate myself. for now ----

i'm mad at myself, not you !

i'm mad for always being nice , always apologizing for things i didn't do , for getting attached , for making you my life , depending on you , wasting my time on you , thinking about you , forgiving you , wishing for you , dreaming of you ,

but most of all ,
for not hating you , which i know i should ....
                                                                                                  But i just can't =(